Why am I NOT happy !?

Introducing

My very own

homemade specialty

Fruit Krips

strawberry

Are you kidding me !?

5 Reasons why we're besties

Annice Teo, Denise Tan
Pronouce as nisies and surnames with T

Born on 11.6.92, and as for her, 6.11.92

Approxiamently 4 pm I was brought into
this world during labor, and Denise's was 4 am

Our dad's birthdays were on the month of April

We love, hate, love, hate, love each other

Coincidence much !?

Do I !?

I have to be at least decent to be accepted, and that to me is bull. The frustrations I came across whenever I dwell myself in these thoughts not just about me but others as well. No matter how you walk, talk, sit, stand... every particle that attracts to you are being critically judged by others and none of them kept it in silents. You see everyone talks about everybody. Kay I feel utterly stupid talking to myself now.

I don't even get a clue why I decided to keep my blog private. There's so much for me to say but I don't even feel compel doing so by blurting everything out here since I got B for my GCEO. All my life I've been struggling and yes I do believe I'm not the only one. I did my best, but unfortunately it wasn't good enough.

I really do want to inspire people around me but even me myself can't seem to find the inspiration to boost me up. Slowly later on I begin to feel weak, skeptical, and sometimes it even makes me wonder God... are you there !? Obviously I am going through a rough time, but I guess that is just a minority. There's much more tragedies out there I've yet to know.

A gift from me to you :)

Happy Birthday

Aunty Janet

& to my cuzzie

Happy Sexaay 18

to

Justen Desmond Pang

You better come back this summer !

Happy 18th Birthday

to

Yong Choong Lye

Oppss, again

YONG CHOONG LYE

Joannie Rochette

Once again the great Joannie Rochette has proven herself and the
world she can with her outstanding qualities in competitive figure skating.

Most people were amazed by Yu-Na Kim's splendid performance this morning and supporting her all the way they shall. As for me I was blown away by Joannie Rochette's incredibly brave and emotional performance. Despite her mother's tragic death approximately three days ago, she certainly shows poise and determination in the face of grief during her short program and placed third for that by scoring 71.36 clean. Her performance shows no mercy for my poor nerves as I'm terribly afraid she'll fail to land her triples, but she has fought a good fight and score herself a possibility in the 2010 Winter Olympic podium position.

Bronze, silver nor gold we'll soon find out this Friday. What she gave today was far most the best short programme I've ever since yet, based on my judgment of course. She held her nerve for three incredible minutes and dazzled not just the crowd but the world with her well prepared short program. Yu-Na Kim was great, no eye see for that, breaking her season's best and boosted her own world record scoring 78.50, total madness. & as for Sasha Cohen sadly placed fourth on the US Nationals, boo for that as well. Believe me, what I've seen this morning, almost, haha ALMOST brought me to tears. I find myself been less emotional since the year has began, can't blame. I will be supporting her all the way till she's done with her four minutes of free skate/ long program, while you people go for Yu-Na Kim XD

Let's see what the media has to say,

''They cried for her courage, they cried for her strength, they cried because, by skating with her heart broken, Joannie Rochette broke theirs.

The tears started soon after Joannie Rochette took the ice Tuesday night in the women's short-program figure skating, less than three days after her mother died.

Therese Rochette, 55, died of a heart attack Sunday, the day after arriving in Vancouver with her husband to watch their daughter compete.

Tuesday night, it didn't matter if the reigning world silver medallist gave a perfect performance in the short-program skate, or one that dashed medal hopes for her and for Canada. What mattered was that she skated. And, in spite of the crushing burden of grief, she put in a beautiful performance, drawing massive cheers when she landed difficult moves. She received a standing, uproarious ovation when she finished, then sat, in tears, to wait for her scores.

Rochette took third place in the short program, the first part of the two-portion women's skating event. Medals will be awarded after short-program results are combined with those from the free skate Thursday.

Rochette's Olympic experience started off with excitement. The Ile Dupas, Que., native met Team Canada hockey goaltenders Roberto Luongo and Martin Brodeur, and had her photo taken with U.S. snowboarding star Shaun White. Just a week ago, she told media at a press conference that winning a medal would mean a great deal to her, but she was trying not to think about it, instead concentrating on her performance.

But early Sunday, her father came to the athletes' village to tell her that her mother had succumbed to a massive heart attack.

Rochette had not yet seen her mother in Vancouver. The grief-stricken skater went to Vancouver General Hospital to say goodbye to her mom. She practised later that day, as her father watched from the stands, wiping away his tears.

Skate Canada president Benoit Lavoie said it appeared Rochette was "going back to her Olympic mode to cope."

On Monday, Rochette and her coach, Manon Perron, released a statement saying an outpouring of support from Canadians was helping them to get through such a difficult time.

The five-foot-two-inch Rochette, 24, is a six-time Canadian champion. She finished fifth in the 2006 Olympic Games in Turin.

Rochette began skating before age 2 when her father, a trainer of young hockey players, introduced her to the sport, and she credits her mother with involving her in different sports, and pushing her to succeed.''

Before leaving the arena, the tearful Rochette blew a kiss to the audience.''

She certainly inspires me, allowing nothing to impede what is her stage of life at this very moment in spite of her mother's tragic death. Like what one of Ziyan's strip of advices state ''Take time and figure out what matter the most to you now'', as I'm sure Joannie herself is well aware of it. Not the future, not the past but right here, right now. She has fought a good fight and finished the race, well almost, there's still ladies free skating waiting to be amaze this Friday. What she did this morning, Malaysia local time, wowed the world succeedingly and that I salute her.

Her mother would have been so proud :)

Moodswings

Aren't just rapid change of mood,

nor temporarily upset brain chemistry,

apparently they are contagious as well.

Amanda, Justin... will the both cheer up?

Not a very creative way to say, plain normal

But please, the least I can do is listen

& stop crapping, I shall. My goodness

Despite the 4 hours of sleep

Earlier today was fantastic !!!

Let's face it,
forbidding myself in dwelling this
particular situation is still the best.

Mediocre... am I !?
Nahh I can do better...

• Vancouver 2010 Winter Olympic Games begins,
  if you know me well enough, guess you'll probably
  know which sport event I'm aching to catch live on TV
• As for me and my family's CNY celebration,
  so far so good,pictures can be found on FaceBook
• I desperately want to meet up with Denise, Jun Yong and Anselm
• Bryan Adams, Marc Cohn and Tim Hughes are my current favourite
• Think I'm going to try to make the Irish Fifteens (sweeties) tomorrow
• Been reading a lot lately
• Redecorating personal room plan has been canceled
• Just realized everything is perfect in place, why change !?
• Been missing quite a few people :)
• Tristan ruined my Roxy flip flop and got scolded from dad for letting
  him out and linger around the front yard, my sincere apologies Amanda
• The pair of flip flop still looks new lo, a gift from Amanda and Yu Xun
  few years back, only started using it few months ago, heart ache :(
• Brown and grey both are my new favourite colours
• As you can see both colours couldn't be well combinate, still... me like
• Skating couldn't get any better
• Have not blog about Feb 6th's graduation
• Still have much in mind to blog, but..... hhheee adios now

Besides wishing everyone a
Prosperous Chinese New Year,
Happy Valentine's day as well.

There is a particular reason why I love this song.....

Diabetes arising, not cool

• The meals I took today, were not healthy at all
• Started with morning with honey, afternoon juice and
  cupcakes, & candies for dinner + popcorn for movies oh no
• Basically is just snacks snacks and more snacks all the way
• This is how I live through my day, once in a while boleh la right !?

Breakfast

Dinner

I'm gonna keep this all to myself :)

No hidden sentences here alright...

Haiyo highlight for what !? hahahahaha







OMG look at Kenneth, damn tall !!

Let's put it this way, I'm just lazy to blog & pour all my thoughts out that is all

Can I get your phone number !?

Here's what I came across this afternoon,
upon waiting for Amanda, Yew Kuan and Justin.

wow you're so good in skating

trust me I'm not the best

but you are to me, what's your name !?

Annice :)

Very nice to meet you Annice, how old are you then ?

Seventeen this year, since my bday is still four months away

Harh!? Really ah? I thought you're fifteen or something.. are you local ?

Uhhhh yea.. Why would you say that ? Don't I look like a Malaysian ?

No worrr, I was thinking which girl descended from the Heaven

Uhhh, okay

Seriously, this is so hilarious.
& no I did not gave him my number. I figured e-mail will do, haha

Happy 18th Birthday

James Leong Chan Fai

This was last year's but still boleh la

Just wanted you to know you're one of the best. Which means you're not the best after all, haha. I'm very aware that we didn't chat much like we used to. Even if we did for examples, while Skyping, I don't know I just feel that the awkwardness seem to prevail all over. Maybe is the fact that we didn't get to see each other for quite some time, I don't know. Whatever it is you're still a close friend of mine no matter what, I mean it. You're truly a wonderful friend.

Ps: I want to eat crab, not crap. hhhaa

Denmark Local News

Click and Read :)

There's this cute guy ...

Oh dear I sound like Amanda.

His name is Caleb btw, Caleb Fullerton in full. Utterly cute and full of sanguinity which I tend to take a profound interest in him. This guy apparently is one of the many reasons enlightens my life for the pass few days. Originally from Ireland, though I only get to know him what ?less than two weeks but I find something in him aroused my mood exuberantly. I've never find myself having this sort of rare feeling toward any opposite sex, but I figure is time. Never thought I would say this but you know it could be fate, for the both of us.

I find myself waking up every morning with a smile on my face and spun down for breakfast in order to perk myself up. But there he was, sitting right end of the cafeteria smiling and waving at me. I blushed, taking the liberty to sit next to him whenever I can cause apparently he's always booked by other girls even guys no joke. Wooooott !! Did I mention he plays piano and draw as well !? No I don't suppose I have. Hheee, my type !? Huge possible, hhaa I wish, why wait !?

He has a really great smile, absolute charming. Such a friendly, funny and playful human being, really digs out the happiness hidden beneath my melancholy self. You know I really don't mind long distance relationship lo.. He surprised me in times like after breakfast or dinner and ask for a walk outside the campus. Indeed we did, near the pool and the garden, romantic much hell yeah !! Adventurous and demonstrative as he himself has always been especially during our visit to the Orang Asli and while we're having fun by the waterfall. He is such an optimistic and filled with confident in life which really inspires me.

As to my recall I remember the other day when he was having cookies during snack time and I was some where near him by then, and out of no where he appears next to me and offer me his cookies when I reached out to accept his offer he withdraw it back and feed me. Moving on, guess what happen this morning ? I was having banana cake and he was sitting right next to me and ask me to feed him. OMG damn honored wei. My heart literally melt and was there without given much thought who ever is looking and stuff the piece of cake into his mouth and then he looks up to me with a smile. At the very moment I assure myself he might be the one, better yet he is the one.

There right there my dream sexay man after all these years I, Annice Teo Ann Lyn has finally found him. Of course every girl's fairy tale has to come to the end. Unfortunately Caleb departed this morning and is on his way to India with his family. We bid each other farewell at the front porch and the I can't believe that he cried and hugged me, I was in absolute shock. Nonetheless, well I actually plan to conceal this particular incident but I'll blog it any way he layed a kiss on my face. Wooohooo Annice Teo the luckaaaaaaay girl and probably the most happiest girl in the world right now.

Upon their departure he and his family gave me a pack of candy from Ireland and a card. It motivates me so, from now I'm going to study real hard to earn monaaayy to buy a flight ticket to Ireland sometime in future to reunited with my love. Caleb, thanks for the memories, you're probably the best thing ever yet happen to me so far. I miss you terribly already, not to worry, I'm coming for you.

Nice meeting you Caleb, truly it's been a pleasure :)

Much loves, Annice :)

Bet y'all wanna meet him eh !?






I really like him you know, adore him so much <3

Can't seem to stop fidgeting whenever I'm around him

This must be it, he is the one, incase you guys are wondering

GOT CHAAAAAA !!! still damn cute la CALEB !!

Glee

PS: I may be ulu but I'm loving their version + the show of course :) such splendor

Yee Sook

Hi,

It's been a year now....

How are you doing !?

Guess where am I now !?

• MY ROOM !!
• You know... as in KL, Puchong , actual house !?
• Bangganya, will be staying for the weekends
  then back to the usual on Monday
• I'm giving this another try and hold on tight all
  the way till the 6th of February
• Yesterday's class was fantastic
• Took my dad and his driver 5 hours to bring me home
• I can't thank them enough for jail breaking me, kidding
• Words can't describe how happy am I now ^^
• The Lord has answered my prayers
• & that I thank you so much for that
• Am not saying that the place feels like a dungeon or so
• Just practical home sick issue here that's all
• Btw it's been fun knowing these people :)
  
  

I've got a very important date :)

A film by Tim Burton

Alice In Wonderland

Plot. A sequel to Lewis Carroll's original story, the movie has Alice Kingsley, now 19, attending a party at a Victorian estate, only to find she is about to be propose to marriage by a rich suitor in front of hundreds of snooty society types. She runs off, following a white rabbit into a hole and ending up in Wonderland, a place she visited many years before, though she doesn't remember it. The White Rabbit claims to have come back for Alice because she is the only one who can slay the Jabberwocky, the beast who guards the Red Queen's empire. Alice remains completely unaware of why she is in Wonderland, and is confused about the fact that she had once visited Wonderland years before. She then embarks — assuming both large and small sizes — on an adventure of self discovery and to save Wonderland from the Red Queen's reign of terror with the help of her Wonderland friends.

This remarkable adventure-fantasy film got me well intrigued. In other joyous form of expressing myself, I SO WANT TO WATCH THIS & I WANT TO WATCH IT IN 3D XD !! It is scheduled release sometime around March or April, but I don't believe it'll be showing in Malaysia, not cool :( & I want to get my hands on the soundtrack and the original score for this film which is nicely composed by Danny Elfman, still.. Hans Zimmer is always and forever will be the top of my list as a brilliant film composer.

I'm all clam, we'll see how it goes :)

• Had what we called Work Day, today
• Swam and played Frisbee
• Barbeque for dinner
• Kena tease kao x2 by the KL & Aussie langs
• Class from 8.30 pm till 11.15pm , madness

I thought I can, but I can't....

Why ? Why can't I presume on, weakling much ? Ya you bet. I've been praying since the day I arrived but still I can't see where is this going. Sure there comes a time where I was pretty damn happy, but apparently nonchalant and reluctant both are impeding for the pass few days. Which brings me finding myself here typing, feeling useless as ever, baring my soul for nothing or something, heck I don't know. A simple task you see, nothing much but why can't I get it through and be done with it ? Before I even think of making my journey here, this.. this has been a vehement refusal for me but I end up telling myself I can and I will. Just stay there for a total 5 weeks ... boom done, is that too much to ask huh Annice ?

What am I feeling right now is like a bloody roller coaster ride with the absence of it's control panel. Believe me I prayed, hard as a matter a fact, maybe too hard, nahh that's rubbish. Still.. the feeling can't seem to fade away.I find it ridiculously hard, both mentally and spiritually for me to be here. Is not about you Annice, you're here to learn, to grown. Maybe it doesn't have to be this way to improve my spiritual life, or maybe is the fact that I'm not ready... yet. There's always next year right !? Why can't I overcome it ? I've never quit (except guitar and gymnast), ahh fine I've quited before, but why do I have vehemence towards this ? I'm like interrogating myself now. Well simple, I have two answer for myself, useless and weak. There I go, feeling better !?

I've never been more disappointed at myself, letting my parents down as always or at least I think I am. What the #&%#@ I don't know. I've achieve most of the stuff I listed down and what my parents wish me to do and why is it all except this particular thing I can't fulfill it ? How am I going to step up and move on in future ? One of the many reason I do not wish to be here is because of the extreme teaching. The stuff I read from the application is somewhat different from what they're educating us here. Believe me, I'm not the only one who wants to scream and stare till the front gate opens and make our great escape. I'm sorry, I've fail in so many ways that even I myself feel shameful to talk about it. I feel so insecure, I do want to be strong, I know I can but being presumptuous these few days finally got me breakdown earlier this afternoon.

Uselessly I don't know what else I can do to adapt this. I can see that 25th of January is looming, great; weee another day of sorrow. It's been nearly a year now, how are you doing ? Most importantly how's your family doing ? The ones who tragically lost their son, brother, family member. Maybe I don't have to do this to make you happy. There are lots of other ways to be exult about. I don't have to attend this to make my life stronger. Ya.. pfft maybe. I was damn semangat and damn sure of myself at the last previous post, but then look what happen now ? Laugh all you want people.

I did gain something, but you know certain courses stressed me out much so. I may not know what the problem is, either me or something else. I just don't think is right for me, by reading the applications yeah. But because of promoting they boleh change sikit what right !? Other than that, the companies are great. Played mafias practically every night till dawn. Just self issues here, can't blurt it all out cause I don't feel comfortable doing so, sighhh again. Wanted to talk with a few people but unfortunately can't find myself talk with this particular person. Forget it, but thank you Amanda thank you so much for being there when I need you. Tatatadaaaa Mandeee to the rescue !! hehehe I'll think about it and see how both of my parents think. :)

I'm sorry for everything.

Tomorrow is a NEW DAY !!

After much consideration & wise thinking,

• Denmark is so a week ago
• All there's left are memories, so live on
• I'll finish what I have started
• I'm going to focus and commit to it for the next 3 weeks
• No more rants phone calls to complain all to my mom
• I'm going to make the Lord, my parents and everyone proud
• Starting now, goodnight :)

I am aware of my thoughts :)

Lions Clubs International Youth Exchange Programme '09 & '10

It was indeed a spectac, relish & a memorable experience. Judged from the picture shown above, don't you think we look damn fine with the Y.E uniforms ? No !? Kay we'll move pass that. Well I know what you're thinking, Annice... Annice... Denmark thumbs up, bible course thumbs well you know. Tsk tsk, told you it was an inappropriate thinking, same goes to me but as you know during my stay in Denmark I was homesick as well at the time, don't forget. Finally majority photos successfully uploaded in FaceBook, don't ask me why I felt compel to do so. In fact is a colossal waste of time but still I uploaded them any way, check them out will you !? If possible. Just to be sure and well warn you that there are lots of pictures and I managed to hit the record for nearly 1000 of pictures through out this entire trip. Of course I did not took the liberty to upload them all, I look retarded. There's still numberous of pictures in the camera haven't been transfer in the computer. If you're still thristy for more than it'll be my great pleasure to upload them, if no and some of you might not even give a damn about then then :( for me. LOL, sorry. Any way moving on, I enjoy myself very much and learned so much. Set foot in multiple places during my stay at the country starting from Odense to Fredericia, Roskilde, Copenhagen followed by Hørning, Arhus lastly return to Copenhagen again. That reminds me I still have a report to write, and I've got a feeling that it's going to be a long one. Yikess !!

Will be home in 3 weeks time ...

Let's start off with some pictures, shall we !?

• Techno gadgets aren't surrender like I thought they will be
• The facilities aren't too shabby either,
  lots of activities can be found to participate
• Currently in the midst of dwelling into homiletics
• Cameron trip it was the day before,
  wandered around town and BOH tea house
• Jusco, Ipoh today to catch a movie with the other fellow students
• So I guess you'll be thinking bible school for me so far very relish don't you ?

Despite all the things that happened either pleased nor gloomed me and might still to is now, I miss home, dearly. I mean at the tender of my juvenile state, I've never been so far and long away from home. Approximately 2 months I may say to be exact. :( When I make my way back from Denmark to Malaysia and settle down for two days before heading to my next stop, thinking two days wasn't enough for me at all. As delightful as it is I get to spend limited time with my family and a couple of friends who are generously enough to come for a short visit. Multiple inappropriate thinking are taking over my thoughts & that I humbly ask God for your forgiveness. Part of my confession involve not wanting to be here, but then I gave my word and not to mention my willingness to learn and get closer to Lord Jesus Christ. Guess that leaves me now, hoping by the end of this course I'll find it educational, knowledgeable, wise thinking, a better person and commit more to the Lord as I am before. Can't guarantee but I'm trying my best here. Still, am not afraid to say that my mind is still currently highly disturbed by my inappropriate thoughts. I need an eraser, fast. Obviously I won't say that I regret being here, and is isn't right for my to be a recalcitrance child either. Kay as for now mind set, 3 more weeks to go and that's it, end of story. I can get through this and ends it all with a cert and God's words that I'll lock it in mind and go on with life. Come to think of it isn't that bad after all. It's just me and my unspeakable (but still did voice it out la) thoughts and frustrations. Again, how could I think that. Well.. in the Lord's name any thing is possible. Other than that I did get to meet some friends, friendly and awesome ones. Played lots of games and laughed like mad. Semua GILA punya orang, LMAO. Oh oh, before I enter ''publish post'' I won't want to miss to let you guys know that we're heading to the village to visit the Orang Asli some time the week before the course ends plus my dad is coming to visit me. Great !! A familiar face, like finally. Alas, I'm homesick once again and find myself depend too much on friends and family. Well what is not to be and miss right !? So it has been my problem. Pfft.

PS: Guess after reading this, most of you are like WHATTTTTTT !? XD

Delayed picture post

TIVOLI
29th of December, 2009

• Christmas present redeeming day
• The entire amusement park was well decorated
• Very Christmasy and ravishing lightings
• Hands down to the best rollercoaster ride yet - The Dæmon
• Golden Tower horriblely terrified me
• World's first invented rollercoaster was found there
• The candy floss they sold there were huge
• In fact you may find yourself feeling nauseous when you try
  getting the whole thing down to your stomach
• Cheese burger + bacon for dinner !!
• Got free candies, wooot lucky much
• Stores loaded with Nissen
• Walk, talk, sit, stand, scream, jump....
  pretty much what we've done all day
• Sat most of the rides with Kalle, one of my host brother
• Survived through the day with hot chocolate, it was freezing cold
• It was an outdoor adventure, that explains why
• & the day ends with aprroximately 10 minutes of splendid fireworks display
• More pictures to come, so brace yourself
• Be prepare to be flush with loads of pictures in facebook some
  time around on the 12th or 13th or you are more than welcome
  to simply ignore it
• Wait for it :)
  
  
  

  Candies, sweeties, and everything nice

What I had for dinner

Fireworks display for the night

& the rest of the night