Christmas

Jesus is the reason

for the season

Thought y'all should know :)

Devious

Recently a friend of my cousin's passed away at such a tender age. He was, unfortunately struck by lightning. & awoken me thinking there we were yesterday, under the stormy rain pouring like cats and dogs, swimming and having fun, not thinking about any consequences. Imagine one of us, however unfortunately got struck by lightning, the risk we're taking and cowardly we didn't even notice. No souls offended by the way, but what if !? What if !? Really ...

Was cycling yesterday with James around the car park and suddenly fell due to the slippery of the ground, badly I suppose. Was indeed shock at the moment, everything happened so quickly. To my surprise I got up quickly, was deeply hurt but thank God there wasn't any scars nor blood flashing. My right arm felt swollen, I can feel it and yet I'm still denying it by reluctantly admitting I was perfectly fine. Where obviously I'm not. Why am I lying !? Honestly most of the time I hold back everything up, not wanting myself to be worried by others though I must say I do appreciate your concern and help. In other the fact that I've always fall at the rink and what happened yesterday was one of the many times, guess I got use to it. Lol, total different story. There I stood up strong, or was trying to, holding all the pain back and saying I'm okay. Why is that !?

Other than that I felt terribly devastated, still is actually. I do aware that non of this are my bloody fucking business, but why do I care so much ? Both did apologize, but I find it isn't necessary to me. You guys don't have to, am not saying you guys depraved or what. Want to apologize !? Not to me but to you, yourself. ''Nothing one la'' as most people are saying nowadays. ''Why did you care so much !?'' Because they're my friends. I felt useless in away, but don't ever get me wrong, I'm not being holy or what so ever. Ethical, logical thinking manner come on. But what done is done, I don't think I even want to care any more in any other way. As flouder, useless I am or feeling now, I have no idea what to do. Best way is to just let it be. I know you guys may find me being such an ass now veto something you guys did, but I'm sorry, it is what it is. I can't change the fact that how myself behave and same goes to what you guys are doing. There, fair and just. You know what ? I'm sorry, the fact that I got carried away, but underneath all that, I'm just concern and yes I deeply care about you two, same goes to the rest of y'all.

Done, you may find me pathetic if you want, permission allowed. No souls offended.

Happy 17th Birthday

Mahtieu the Mataodi Tan

Though an iPod shuffle is way better than a card

But we sure do hope you like it :)
Love me and Ziyan <3

• Mathieu's actually big day is today, Happy Birthday
• As for his birthday bash, it was held yesterday
• Denise and Ziyan followed me back after school
• Me and Ziyan both decided to hand make a card for Math
• Played dress up, AGAIN. Their 38ness are damn lunatic
• Amanda joined us later on, and off we go .....

Possible A !?

Denise's

Mine

Managed to snap a few of mine after Seni paper, phew.. under permission of course. & I thought it was just me, mana tahu the whole class including the pegawais, took our phone out and snapped away. LOL, never thought practical SPM Seni sitting would be so much fun.

Personally I was not really satisfy with my orchids, I find it looks really cartoonish. Not my very best but it was alright. Can't fulfill every one's satisfation, however what's done its done, moving on then.

I don't know about you guys, can't seem to have the WOW feeling towards it. I feel dull actually. So give me your best criticism, boleh tanah, could do better or horrible I can take it. I won't get offended so easily.

Strike 3

• Dress up
• Camslutting
• Art tutoring
• Mamak at night
• Sleepover then

Had a hell lot of FUN with one of my BFFs, DeeCamillia. Since art has been one of the major subject in her stream, she needed extra help to boost up her colour toning technique. Well honestly I'm glad that she come to me for help and honored to be her ''Sifu'', that's 100% from her btw.

All I want you know is, Dee you did your best and if you get an A for it, I'm happy enough. Really, I don't expect any thing in return and you don't have to thank me as if I'm your savior. LOL When you mention, your art result is on my hand, I literally freak out, no joke. But no Dee, do put in mind that is all you. You don't need me to paint well,I'm not the reason for it, but I sure glad I'm there to help. :)

Camslutting,
all girls just want to have fun

Style shots

Prom dresses discovery, haha

Remember Dee,

do your best and God will do the rest :)

More of it exit to,

• Me FaceBook
• Denise Camillia's blog

Thank you

Teacher Emma

She loathed herself being capture in camera,

so this consider the far most efficient shot I managed to capture

I would very much like to take this opportunity to sincerely thank my dearly beloved art mentor before I set foot into the examination room to sit for my art practical tomorrow morning. THANK YOU for everything, your kindness, patience, guidance, teaching towards this one and the half year has made differences in my life. I used to under estimate myself, (still is, actually) but at least I manage to break free a little. When we first started last year, I remembered I used to fear that my painting is impossible to reach to the up most ravishing state of perfecting a master piece. Then there you were, encouraging me that nothing is impossible for I'm possible. & when you said that I developed real quick and claim that I am your top student, I wasn't proud at all. Yet I was glad, greatful and overly flattered that you have faith in me, you look up to me, building me up, turning me the artist I could be and what I'm capable of doing this very day. You've shown me that there's no law require in art, where art is LIFE and doing whatever you feel like it . Being humble is a should thing, and on top of everything I thank you so so much. :)

Saying it again

Maybe it's more

important to be a friend

than to have one

Perseverance

• In order to succeed, that's the first
• Feel like going to the rink in the morning,
  just to think through and sort thoughts out
• Why am I such a pessimist !?
• Current perturbation should clearly be stopped
• Health condition isn't doing any good either
• Feeling damn shitty these pass few days
• A word of advise or wisdom ? Or a sign will do
• I want to.... hhhaaa that's private
• How's life like being a P.K, FYI is not pok kai :p
• Bible scriptures really do help, trust me :)