I have to be at least decent to be accepted, and that to me is bull. The frustrations I came across whenever I dwell myself in these thoughts not just about me but others as well. No matter how you walk, talk, sit, stand... every particle that attracts to you are being critically judged by others and none of them kept it in silents. You see everyone talks about everybody. Kay I feel utterly stupid talking to myself now.
I don't even get a clue why I decided to keep my blog private. There's so much for me to say but I don't even feel compel doing so by blurting everything out here since I got B for my GCEO. All my life I've been struggling and yes I do believe I'm not the only one. I did my best, but unfortunately it wasn't good enough.
I really do want to inspire people around me but even me myself can't seem to find the inspiration to boost me up. Slowly later on I begin to feel weak, skeptical, and sometimes it even makes me wonder God... are you there !? Obviously I am going through a rough time, but I guess that is just a minority. There's much more tragedies out there I've yet to know.
