Sunday, March 14, 2010

Do I !?

I have to be at least decent to be accepted, and that to me is bull. The frustrations I came across whenever I dwell myself in these thoughts not just about me but others as well. No matter how you walk, talk, sit, stand... every particle that attracts to you are being critically judged by others and none of them kept it in silents. You see everyone talks about everybody. Kay I feel utterly stupid talking to myself now.

I don't even get a clue why I decided to keep my blog private. There's so much for me to say but I don't even feel compel doing so by blurting everything out here since I got B for my GCEO. All my life I've been struggling and yes I do believe I'm not the only one. I did my best, but unfortunately it wasn't good enough.

I really do want to inspire people around me but even me myself can't seem to find the inspiration to boost me up. Slowly later on I begin to feel weak, skeptical, and sometimes it even makes me wonder God... are you there !? Obviously I am going through a rough time, but I guess that is just a minority. There's much more tragedies out there I've yet to know.

Thursday, March 04, 2010

A gift from me to you :)

Happy Birthday

Aunty Janet

Thursday, February 25, 2010

& to my cuzzie

Happy Sexaay 18
to
Justen Desmond Pang

You better come back this summer !
Happy 18th Birthday
to
Yong Choong Lye

Oppss, again

YONG CHOONG LYE

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Joannie Rochette


Once again the great Joannie Rochette has proven herself and the
world she can with her outstanding qualities in competitive figure skating.

Most people were amazed by Yu-Na Kim's splendid performance this morning and supporting her all the way they shall. As for me I was blown away by Joannie Rochette's incredibly brave and emotional performance. Despite her mother's tragic death approximately three days ago, she certainly shows poise and determination in the face of grief during her short program and placed third for that by scoring 71.36 clean. Her performance shows no mercy for my poor nerves as I'm terribly afraid she'll fail to land her triples, but she has fought a good fight and score herself a possibility in the 2010 Winter Olympic podium position.

Bronze, silver nor gold we'll soon find out this Friday. What she gave today was far most the best short programme I've ever since yet, based on my judgment of course. She held her nerve for three incredible minutes and dazzled not just the crowd but the world with her well prepared short program. Yu-Na Kim was great, no eye see for that, breaking her season's best and boosted her own world record scoring 78.50, total madness. & as for Sasha Cohen sadly placed fourth on the US Nationals, boo for that as well. Believe me, what I've seen this morning, almost, haha ALMOST brought me to tears. I find myself been less emotional since the year has began, can't blame. I will be supporting her all the way till she's done with her four minutes of free skate/ long program, while you people go for Yu-Na Kim XD

Let's see what the media has to say,

''They cried for her courage, they cried for her strength, they cried because, by skating with her heart broken, Joannie Rochette broke theirs.

The tears started soon after Joannie Rochette took the ice Tuesday night in the women's short-program figure skating, less than three days after her mother died.
Therese Rochette, 55, died of a heart attack Sunday, the day after arriving in Vancouver with her husband to watch their daughter compete.

Tuesday night, it didn't matter if the reigning world silver medallist gave a perfect performance in the short-program skate, or one that dashed medal hopes for her and for Canada. What mattered was that she skated. And, in spite of the crushing burden of grief, she put in a beautiful performance, drawing massive cheers when she landed difficult moves. She received a standing, uproarious ovation when she finished, then sat, in tears, to wait for her scores.

Rochette took third place in the short program, the first part of the two-portion women's skating event. Medals will be awarded after short-program results are combined with those from the free skate Thursday.
Rochette's Olympic experience started off with excitement. The Ile Dupas, Que., native met Team Canada hockey goaltenders Roberto Luongo and Martin Brodeur, and had her photo taken with U.S. snowboarding star Shaun White. Just a week ago, she told media at a press conference that winning a medal would mean a great deal to her, but she was trying not to think about it, instead concentrating on her performance.

But early Sunday, her father came to the athletes' village to tell her that her mother had succumbed to a massive heart attack.

Rochette had not yet seen her mother in Vancouver. The grief-stricken skater went to Vancouver General Hospital to say goodbye to her mom. She practised later that day, as her father watched from the stands, wiping away his tears.

Skate Canada president Benoit Lavoie said it appeared Rochette was "going back to her Olympic mode to cope."

On Monday, Rochette and her coach, Manon Perron, released a statement saying an outpouring of support from Canadians was helping them to get through such a difficult time.

The five-foot-two-inch Rochette, 24, is a six-time Canadian champion. She finished fifth in the 2006 Olympic Games in Turin.

Rochette began skating before age 2 when her father, a trainer of young hockey players, introduced her to the sport, and she credits her mother with involving her in different sports, and pushing her to succeed.''

Before leaving the arena, the tearful Rochette blew a kiss to the audience.''

She certainly inspires me, allowing nothing to impede what is her stage of life at this very moment in spite of her mother's tragic death. Like what one of Ziyan's strip of advices state ''Take time and figure out what matter the most to you now'', as I'm sure Joannie herself is well aware of it. Not the future, not the past but right here, right now. She has fought a good fight and finished the race, well almost, there's still ladies free skating waiting to be amaze this Friday. What she did this morning, Malaysia local time, wowed the world succeedingly and that I salute her.

Her mother would have been so proud :)

Monday, February 22, 2010

Moodswings

Aren't just rapid change of mood,
nor temporarily upset brain chemistry,
apparently they are contagious as well.
Amanda, Justin... will the both cheer up?
Not a very creative way to say, plain normal
But please, the least I can do is listen
& stop crapping, I shall. My goodness

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Despite the 4 hours of sleep

Earlier today was fantastic !!!


Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Let's face it,
forbidding myself in dwelling this
particular situation is still the best.